A Dream

Why aren't you there?
Why aren't you anywhere?
I keep calling your name, and crying like rain, but it's not and it's so and you're there.
But you're not.
You're not here.
You're nowhere.
Not anywhere.
There.
I'd do almost anything.
I'd live through a lie.
Why is it too late?
Why can't I not cry?
I'd take back my words,
and I'd hold it all out.
I'd bury the shadows,
the poison,
and doubt.
But please, can't you come?
Return to the start!
Please, as I lay here,
begging my heart.
Please turn back time,
or make it anew.
I can't handle this.
I can't handle you.
Please rescue me now,
give me a life.
I'd give it all up,
if you made me your...