socially inept

.... so, theres this school play. lately i've been getting into it, but i think im caring too much considering auditions havent even happened yet. i duno.
before i said that i wanted to hang out with bari and that i missed her, but now im thinking whats really the point? i mean i dont hang out with her, i dont talk to her, and we dont really have anything to tell each other, so what exactly would we do? answer: just sit there and be like "soooo....".
and lets see, school sux: my grades are no good and im incredibly behind in a ton of classes.
ummm, i dont really feel like i have many friends, or more than two friends actually, b/c theres this kind of growing rift between me and most of my old friends. theres just amanda... and sometimes tolik, that changes. honestly, i dont think id be where i am if i had never met amanda. and that may sound bad, depending on how you read it, but its not. i meant it in the sense that id be ways worse off without her. i guess im just not much of a social bug. oh well, life goes on.
im gonna end this now though b/c im at school and i think hershy will get mad if she sees me using the school computers for my blogging.